Luxia Le

This is my necessary reminder that it’s okay to go slow. It’s okay to take a break. It’s okay to take longer than other people. I was recently diagnosed with ADHD. It’s something that I can say confidently I struggled with my whole life, but I’m finally getting support for it and that’s great! My doctor has started me on some medication for ADHD and it’s already helping, I think.

After being on the meds for about a week, I managed to sit down and bang out a ton of work today. I was able to focus and the biggest thing was that I’ve stopped picking my skin as much (my lips are so happy!)

I’m in the process of getting diagnosed with autism, but one thing I do that is noted already in my file is stimming. A lot of my stims involve my mouth (talking, eating, chewing, biting, licking, etc.). A big one that gets me from time to time is picking my lips. Once I start I just can’t stop.

I’ve mostly replaced that habit with eating, drinking, and vaping (I know it’s bad for me. I’m simply unwilling to stop!) But it still crops up from time to time when my lips are extra dry.

But now I’m not doing anything, actually. It’s been replaced with ‘just nothing’, which is like completely and utterly new for me. I don’t just “not” stim because I would simply dissolve and not be able to focus. But I can focus. It’s weird and new but I think I like it. (I think I’m supposed to like it, actually.)