QUIETWORLD

i’m coming to the realisation that i can’t tackle everything all at once. it’s impossible to dedicate appropriate resources to large numbers of tasks. ive been trying to manage so many concurrent changes that i am basically just half-assing all of them.

lately i’ve struggled with low appetite, but i’m also trying to lose weight, and do a tolerance break, and up my strattera dosage. it’s like genuinely kind of a lot, you know?

i’m realising that trying to do all of the above at once is making me fail at all of them.

the obvious beginning point is to get my appetite back to normal. i can’t lose weight in a healthy way if i approach it with already disordered eating.

this is a relatively new type of feeling as the old me would have said “low appetite? more like lose weight fast!” however, the current me sees the long-term consequences and intervenes.

but tonight i really wanted ice cream for dinner. and i am having ice cream for dinner because i’m an adult now and i can do whatever i want. (not bingeing or anything just not tracking my calories or refusing high calorie foods)